i don't know, nowadays i think i'm getting more emotional.

as in, not EMO emotional, but really EMOTIONAL. FULL OF FEELINGS.

usually i don't cry when i watch quite sad movies, when everyone is crying.

but nowdays when i watch just a mildly sad ones, my throat already forms a lump

and tears start welling in my eyes. (and of course i quickly shed them.)

i don't know why, really.

they say being emotional is just being human,

but for me, i'm not used to crying since young.

i just... feel embarrassed when i cry in front of others. even in front of myself.

the point is... now i can't control tears as well as last time.